Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Of Breasts and BlogHer

In middle and high school, I never gave much thought to my breasts. I wasn’t one of those girls anxiously watching the mirror to see when I’d develop a chest or how it filled out.

I have totally made up all boob-introspection time in this month alone.

After various misadventures that I just deleted because no one really wants to know that much detail, I’ve grown accustomed to minute by minute status checks on how the ladies are feeling – engorged, painful, or acceptable. Finally, they’ve reached a comfortable state that I hope lasts until I’m through nursing.

When planning for the weekend of BlogHer, I was nervous that Buster would forget me after three days away and refuse to breastfeed when I returned. Or what if the opposite happened and he rejected the bottle while I was gone and starved?

Of course, neither ended up being the issue. He did just fine. I was the problem. Due to the dreaded but not altogether surprising breast pumping debacle, I made the hundred mile round trip home each day to nurse him. And got some quality snuggling time in as well.

So, as far as the pumping goes, it’s over for me. I’m done.

If I need to go away overnight, the micro dude will go with me. This is the last time I walk down this path, the last time I have a baby. So I’m going to treasure this time.


K goose blog said...

driving back from sf is impressive... I am sure he really appreciates your efforts.

Mayberry said...

Little babies make awesome travel buddies anyway!

Damselfly said...

Ah. I hated pumping with a passion. I have actually missed out on travel because I didn't want to be away from my son and have to pump.

You are so dedicated!

wayabetty said...

Driving 100 miles to breastfeed? I'm bowing down to you now. I'd have let my boobs deflated and here's the formula dude. Good for you Lady M!

Magpie said...

he's portable. and can't run away.

pumping is awful. i did it for a year.

Christina said...

No wonder I didn't see you much at BlogHer - you were traveling too much!

I always hated pumping. I never managed to get much from it, and it hurt worse than any breastfeeding pains.

Mamacita Tina said...

Oh, yes, do enjoy. I sure miss nursing a baby.

The pump, gladly got rid of mine once I was done. Hated it!!!